Sunday, March 31, 2013

Review: Horny As Hell - N.S. Ugezene

Abandoned by his father at the age of two, Pete is left wondering who and where his father is. Curiosity and bad influence open the door for Pete to head down a perverse path. He identifies the first two objects of his desire in the fourth grade and in middle school, he meets Rhonda, the first girl to fully mesmerize him. He goes years without telling Rhonda he had a crush on her. Battling against urges, he founds that he has a few fetishes. Although he never wants to disrespect woman, his erotic thoughts keep him from being able to think about women he's attracted to in a wholesome manner. It even gets to the point that he has a sexual encounter with someone tied to a part of his past he still knows nothing about. But that is far from the end of his sexual adventures. What will happen will when family ties are broken and his past ends up looking him in the face? Pete Maggs is in for a shocker! - AMAZON


When you see a book titled, Horny As Hell you prepare yourself to be taken on a brief or long ride to the “Wild” side of life. Instead of that anticipated “Wild” ride – I entered The Life of Pete Maggs. When Ronald Maggs & LaRaine Ross were young and in love, so it seems until they became parents. Being tired from the constant put downs, Ronald leaves & never returns to his family. LaRaine is forced to raise two-year old Pete alone.

“When you don’t get married, there’s really not much of a way you can make sure the person you love will uphold their end of the agreement.” – LaRaine Maggs

After an unexpected occurrence in the fourth grade, Pete's curiosity starts to get the best of him. The book tells the story of growing pains & life lessons Pete has to deal with in his life.

There were some issues with editing & story development in this book. Overall, Horny As hell was an okay read for me.

2.5 Stars


Thursday, March 28, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour - The Rich Girls' Club - Honey B

When money isn't enough for Brooks Kennedy, Morgan Childs, Storm Dangerfield, and Hope Andrews, the women decide to take over the governor's house in...


California has never had a female governor and Morgan Childs is determined to change that with the help of her friends. Gathering the backing of the wealthiest women in California, she convinces her best friend, Brooks Kennedy, to run for governor.

Morgan's campaign strategy is nontraditional, but she knows her plan to sexually blackmail each of Brooks's opponents is virtually foolproof. Once she convinces the team of her tactics, they do whatever it takes to get incriminating evidence on Brooks's opponents.

One by one each candidate is forced to withdraw from the governor's race, and Morgan couldn't be happier, until someone attempts to kill Brooks. With so many enemies, Brooks has no idea who wants her dead.
When a secret is revealed, Morgan feels betrayed and will stop at nothing to get revenge. Now, Brooks doesn't know who to trust and the women stand to lose more than they bargained for. (Barnes & Noble)


Once you turn the first page, there’s no turning back…. Honey B gives the reader a short introduction on MM, if you don’t know what MM is… (READ THE BOOK). If you are familiar with Honey B’s book, you know there are no mincing words.

"For men, their acquisitions, including women and property were constant ego boasters. Stroke a man's ego; watch him thrive. Starve his ego; see his enthusiasm and his **** become flaccid." - The Rich Girls' Club - Honey B

This novel has it all: Sex, Blackmail, Betrayal, & Secrets.  These characters have so many secrets; you will eagerly turn the pages to see how it all unfolds. Do not be intimidated by the sex scenes – You never know – You might learn a thing or two.



Orsayor: Is there any particular author or book that influenced you in any way either growing up or as an adult?

Honey B: Disappearing Acts by Terry McMillian was the first contemporary novel I bought and read for pleasure. She wrote the kind of book I wanted to read. I was about eighteen at that time. Before her novel, I didn't give much thought to buying books. Terry was also a strong influence when I self-published my first novel because she'd self-published her first book, Mama.

Orsayor: Is anything in your book based on real life experiences or purely all imagination?

Honey B: All of my books are what I call, "A third, a third, and a third." Research. Experience. Imagination. My research includes reading non-fiction sexuality books, traveling to the city where the book is set, and utilizing online resources. I've tried a lot of things in and out of bed, been in a number of serious relationships, dated married men, been married, cheated, and the list of my experiences seem endless. My imagination is uninhibited. Period.

Orsayor: If you could meet any of your own characters, who would it be?

Honey B: Darius Jones. Of all my characters, I think he's misunderstood by the people around him and I'd like to know how that makes him feel as a man.

Orsayor: Is there anything that you would like to say to your readers and fans?

Honey B: Thanks. I love and appreciate each of you for supporting my literary career, attending my relationship venues, and sending me emails. They can visit me online at:

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour: Forever and a Day - Jae Henderson

Tee and Michael Stokes have realized that life for them will never be normal. As heads of a new entertainment management company and expecting parents, its now more important than ever to figure out if their stalker, Rebecca DeFoy, is dead or alive. If she’s alive, will she kill again? If she’s dead, who is impersonating her and why? Whichever the case, they must put an end to the harassment once and for all before she puts an end to them.

Their friends have drama of their own……

Tiffany has traded in her tight clothes and stilettos for big hats and conservative dresses as she tries to prove to one of Memphis’most promising young pastors that she is worthy of a man in the pulpit. Can she control her feelings for Michael, or will temptation ruin her chances for love and her friendship with Tee? Lenice has entered the world of online dating. Her keystrokes can’t mask the pain of a failed relationship, but they could lead her into the life of an elderly millionaire. Lenora’s weight loss has changed her body and her attitude for the better, but her husband’s job at the Kitty Kat Club may be too much for even the new and improved Lenora to handle.


“Thank you for calling MiTee Management, how may I help you?” asked Sheba in her sweetest voice.

“Yeah. Can I speak to my momma?” said a young male.

Sheba hated prank phone calls. She had better things to do with her time than play with somebody she couldn’t see.

“Sir, I think you have the wrong number. Everyone in this office is childless,” she said rudely.

“No. Tina Stokes is my momma. Tell her that her son is on the phone. She’ll know exactly who you’re talking about,” the young man insisted.

Sheba was sure he was crazy. Tee didn’t have any chil-dren yet, and if she did, whoever was on the other end was way too old to be her child, but she decided to humor him. “One moment please,” she said and pressed the button to put him on hold. She then pressed the extension for Tee’s office. “Boss Lady, there’s a young man on the phone who says you’re his momma. Do I need to get rid of him?”

Tee giggled. “No, Sheba, that’s my baby. I’ll explain lat-er. Put him through.”

Her phone rang two seconds later. “MiTee Manage-ment, where we are lifting our clients to new heights. Tee Stokes here. How may I help you?”

Tee loved to say the name of her and Michael’s new management company. They selected MiTee because it was a combination of their names and it sounded like the word the nation. Together, they were a force to be reckoned with. They had only been in business two months, and MiTee Management was currently responsible for maintaining the I’m A Good Woman brand and executing the I’m A Good Woman Empowerment Conference. They also managed Michael’s career as a motivational speaker and book author, Tiffany’s Magic Touch Mobile Massage, and now gospel hip-hop artist Icy Blak. It was an eclectic bunch, but nothing she and Michael couldn’t handle. So far, their assistant Sheba was the only employee, but they were looking to add an additional manager to the team so Tee could attend solely to the baby after he or she was born.

Things took off much faster than either of them could have imagined. After the word circulated that MiTee Management existed, many of the celebrities she and Michael knew called to see if they would be interested in managing them. They turned most of them down because they didn’t want to take on too much too soon, but when Blak called, there was no way Tee could deny him. He was her mentee, and she was honored that he wanted her to help manage his career. They finally had the details worked out, and Blak would be in town tomorrow to sign the contract. She was quite proud of the businessman he was becoming.

“Hey, Ma! I liked your name better when it was Tina Long,” teased Blak.

“Boy, I told you I am nobody’s mother. At least not yet, and I think my new name is beautiful and my new life is beautiful!” Tee looked down at her small, almost three-month baby bump. She was actually enjoying being preg-nant. She got to eat as much as she wanted, and everyone pampered her. The breast swelling was annoyingly painful, but she was secretly excited about the notion of added cleavage. They seemed to be getting bigger every week. She hoped the added inches would stay once the baby was born. Although she didn’t enjoy the morning sickness she first experienced after finding out she was with child, it seemed to have stopped. Odd eating habits were the newest phase in her pregnancy. She dipped a Cool Ranch Dorito in applesauce and chewed it loudly in Blak’s ear.

About The Author:

After embracing careers as a radio talk show host, marketing and media professional, and voice over artist, Jae Henderson decided to add inspirational romance author to her roles. Her entertaining stories about the astounding power of love and God’s ability to care for us have been warmly received by readers of all ages.

Jae began her I’m A Good Woman literary series in 2011 with her debut novel, Someday, and followed it with the 2012 released of its sequel, Someday, Too.Now she’s back with the final book in the trilogy, Forever and Day. Join Jae as she uses her wit and way with words to take us on a most entertaining journey filled with wisdom, romance, suspense, and jaw dropping twists and turns that inspires believers to keep the faith and remember that we may not be perfect but we serve a perfect God. She even has an inspirational estory series entitled, Things Every Good Woman Should Know. These short stories encourage women to be the best they can be in their spiritual, professional, and social lives. Two have been released thus far: You Are Beautiful and Take Care of Those You Love.
Jae Henderson is a graduate of The University of Memphis where she earned a BA in Communications and an MA in English. She is the former host and producer of On Point, a once popular radio talk show geared toward youth and young adults. Other accomplishments have included serving as a contributing writer for the award-winning, syndicated Tom Joyner Morning Show and a successful career as a voice over artist.Her signature voice has been heard in hundreds of commercials and even a couple of cartoons. When Jae isn’t writing, she works as a public relations specialist and college professor. She currently resides in her hometown of Memphis, TN.

Get To Know Jae:

This is the third book in the Someday Trilogy. What can readers expect?
Like my previous books, this is an inspirational romance and my characters experience several faith-challenging situations in their relationships, friendships, and careers. However, this one extends the story with suspense and a great mystery as I slowly reveal who has been stalking Tee and Michael for over a year.  It’s a wonderful “who done it” with a Christian twist. It also contains words of encouragement and scriptures for those who are celibate, dating, as well as those in relationships and marriages.

Do readers have to read the first two books to understand Forever and a Day?

No. I wrote each book in a manner that allows them to fully understand the main occurrences in the previous books and prevents them from feeling lost within the story. However, I encourage those who haven’t read the two previous books to do so. Each character has an interesting story that has evolved with each book. For the month of February, the ebook versions of Someday and Someday, Too will be on sale for only $1.99. I hope people will take advantage of this limited time special and download them.

You write Christian/inspirational romance but your books contain love scenes. Why do you include those?

I don’t feel that I can realistically illustrate the amazing bond than can occur between a man and a woman and ignore the physical aspects of it. Christians have sex, too. My love scenes are always tastefully done. But my genre also includes the word romance and I recognize that romance includes more than sex. I make sure that love is illustrated in other ways such as acts of kindness and words that make your heart melt.  The characters in my books include married couples who enjoy love to the fullest and celibate singles. I have messages to encourage those who are traveling those roads and the ones in between. It is important for me to include something for everyone. Everyone isn’t having sex just as everyone isn’t abstaining from sex.

What’s your inspiration?

My inspiration is my love for people and my desire to help others live the best life possible. I believe our relationship with God is a major part of that. I want to encourage others to read their Bible and seek His will for their lives. I also want to let the world know that Christians have fun! So many people think that you stop having fun and live a boring life in order to do God’s will. That is so not true. I try to make my characters realistic, which means they have flaws, so that people can see themselves in them and see how much more fulfilling life can be when you live according to the Word.  I really am living the good life!

Now that the Someday Trilogy is being put to rest, what’s next?

I am in the process of writing books that contain some of the minor characters in the Someday series. I am enjoying creating backgrounds for these men and women with fresh storylines for my readers. I will also continue to release short stories in the Things Every Good Woman Should Know Series.  These estories provide me with the opportunity to encourage and inspire women to be the best they can possibly be in their spiritual, professional, and social lives.

What do you enjoy most about being a writer?

I LOVE connecting with my readers. It warms my heart every time I talk to or get a message from someone telling me how much they enjoy my books. Every writer wants to feel that they are contributing to the lives of others, even it is by simply allowing them to escape their reality and immerse themselves in a good book. It’s a very gratifying experience. So, please keep the face to face comments, emails, Facebook posts, and Twitter tweets coming.

What’s one personal thing you are willing to share to your readers?

My mother was recently diagnosed with high blood pressure and  kidney failure. She spent nine days in the hospital and by the grace of God, she is fine now.  I am now working hard to make sure she understands the importance of taking her medicine every day and getting her routine dialysis treatments. She can be stubborn. It’s a challenging time, but I am grateful that she is still with me and God is enabling me to care for her. She is my motivation to succeed.


Check out my inspirational romance novels “Someday” and “Someday, Too”! Visit me!

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Monday, March 25, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour - Russian Dolls - Cristelle Comby


Alexandra Neve is a student at University College London whose world suddenly falls apart. When her best friend jumps from the university’s rooftop, she can’t stop herself from asking, ‘Why?’ The police rule her friend’s death a suicide and for them the case is closed — so whom can she turn to for help?
Sometimes the person you need the most is the one you least expect to find, and in this case it’s none other than Ashford Egan, a blind middle-aged history professor, who’s more willing than most to listen to what she has to say. 
Neve and Egan are as different as they come. She’s restless, careless at times, and fearless when the need arises, while he’s almost the complete opposite: a deep thinker with an analytical mind, a highly rational and collected individual.
As they enter the violent world of the Russian mafia, they must overcome their differences and learn to work together. It’s their only chance if they want to survive.
Alexandra Neve is a student at University College London, when her world tragically falls apart. In a bizarre turn of events Alexandra's best friend jumps from the university’s rooftop and the police automatically assume her friend’s death was a suicide and close the case. Alexandra can't stop asking "Why”? And teams up with an unlikely ally named Ashford Egan to find the answers she desperately needs. I really enjoyed the storyline, and think that there's a little something that any reader would enjoy. This book has it all, plot twists; unique characters and lots of excitement to keep you interested every step of the way. I would give this book a 5 out of 5 stars and I’m looking forward to the next book!!!
5 Stars
Billie Jo

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour - Undertow - Elle Chardou

New Adult Contemporary
Date Published: 2/3/13

Evie Sandstrom has always had secrets. She has grown up with them and now they are starting to come back and chip away at her confident facade. Always one for an adventure, she decides to leave after college break and spend the summer in Boston.
The Irish Gangster...
Finn Reilly is not only a bad-boy drug dealer but he is also Evie's first love. When they meet again in Boston, sparks begin to fly and although they share one huge secret that should have destroyed them forever, it unites them at a time when she needs all the help she can get.
The French Model...
Evie's mother, superstar actress Athena Donahue, has remarried to Etienne Fournier, a model who is eighteen years her mother's junior and wants to get to know Evie in more ways than one.
Once Athena drags her daughter back to L.A. under dubious circumstances, she is within the sights of Etienne yet out of the sights of Finn. Can they resolve their differences and will true love prevail or will life get in the way and spoil their chances of happiness?
Undertow- Such a Great book, I loved that it kept you on the edge of your seat until the very end. This is one book that will keep you interested from the first page until the last. I enjoyed the storyline a lot and the characters were amazing in my opinion. I loved the fact that there was so much going on with each character and that it kept you guessing up to the end. I hope there is more to come from these characters, would love to read more about them in the future.
5 stars
Billie Jo

Author Bio:
Elle Chardou is a world traveler and author of several different series.
Ms. Chardou is the author of The Ties That Bind TrilogyThe Atonement SeriesThe Hart Family SagaThe Vamp SagaThe SupernaturalsBeginnings: Book I (The Plague) series.
She is currently working on UndertowOnly Love (The Atonement Series), and several other novels for her continuing paranormal series, The Vamp Saga.
Ms. Chardou has lived abroad in Stockholm (Sweden), Manchester (England), Los Angeles, the San Francisco Bay Area and Portland. She currently resides in Las Vegas, Nevada.


Virtual Book Blog Tour: Kingdom Principles for Everyday Living: 40 Practical Principals for a Fruitful Life - Stewart Bernard Perrilliat


The book is a 40 day devotional. It's a great book for men and women. This book is designed to help those who are struggling with a consistent prayer life. It's easy to read and very fruitful.

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Over the years, I have come to understand the significance of the number 40. Scientifically speaking, 40 weeks is the length of time it takes for a mother to carry an unborn child from conception to delivery. Biblically speaking, 40 is the number associated with a period of testing before a breakthrough.

The number 40 is an indication that God is ready to birth something new out of pain or challenge. According to the Bible, Noah was in the rain for 40 days and nights before God brought a refreshing promise for His people.

When the Children of Israel were ready to cross over into their promise, the spies who preceded them took 40 days to scout out the land. However, because of disobedience, their 40 days turned into 40 years before they entered into the land of promise.
Goliath, who was killed by David, challenged the Children of Israel for 40 days prior to their victory over the Philistine army.

Before He began His ministry, Jesus, while being tempted by satan, fasted for 40 days and 40 nights in the wilderness.

I have experienced my own personal 40 days of trials and tribulations. However, because I did not lose my confidence in God, I was able to realize the significance of the number 40 and receive God’s blessings for me after my test. These truths concerning the number 40 inspired me to write this devotional.

In modern times, 30 days is used to complete various programs or to create a new habit. At the beginning of the year, Magazine cover stories often read, Thirty Days to a New You. For the purpose of this devotional the true number for the manifestation of a renewed life is the number 40.

Therefore, this devotional will afford you an opportunity to develop a more intimate relationship with the Lord and transform your life. As you read this devotional, it will give you hope and renew your strength. On those days when doubt and disbelief abound, I encourage you to remain consistent with your 40 day cycle of reading Kingdom Principles for Everyday Living: 40 Practical Principals for a Fruitful Life.
I challenge you to apply yourself and expect a breakthrough by the time you have complete this devotional. I encourage you to not only read through the devotions in this book, but to read the related scriptures and commit them to memory. This process will increase your knowledge of God, and strengthen your faith towards Him.

God’s will for us is to increase in every area of our lives by being doers of His Word. I pray that this devotional draw you closer to God and give you the incredible power to break into your promise.


Minister. Father. Servant. Evangelist. Author. Stewart Bernard Perrilliat is a gifted individual who has a passion to see broken lives restored and renewed through a relationship with Jesus Christ. A native of Oakland, California, Stewart grew up in a community that was plagued with a number of challenging institutional socio-economic ills. Nevertheless, Stewart escaped the lures of the streets and became a Sergeant in the United States Marine Corp before becoming the Founder and CEO of Perrilliat Enterprises, a general contracting and engineering firm based in Northern California.

Stewart began his ministry call as a Street Evangelist in 1995, and since that time he has been used by the Lord to win countless souls into the Kingdom of God. He attributes his success as a Street Evangelist to his ability to present the gospel in a manner that meets people at the place of their need. His call has become the central focus of his life and ministry. Though Stewart is a gifted entrepreneur, he is first and foremost a service-driven person who is passionate about seeing people live their life now through having a relationship with Jesus Christ. Stewart’s teaching gift empowers people to apply Biblical principles to improve and enhance their lives. His approach is known for being encouraging, practical, and inspirational. He is also known for motivating others to reach their highest potential.

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Friday, March 15, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour - Dream Me Off My Feet - Steve Kisner

Paranormal Romance/Erotica/Rock Star
Date Published: 10/24/12

Dreams aren’t real.
What if the person in your dreams is a real someone you are meant to meet when your life is unraveling faster than a buzzing guitar string? And what if your salvation comes packaged as a rock ‘n roll legend?

On stage, JT Blackwood, singer for the iconic band Slanker Knox, is all rock star dazzle and testosterone. But offstage… he’s had his fill of greedy girlfriends who want the star and not the man. Meaningless sex with nameless groupies has lost its luster. He knows that, someday, the spotlight will go dark and doesn’t want to find himself with only memories for company.

Part-time photographer Kori Connor is full-time frustrated that her life isn’t what she ordered. She doesn’t need another relationship. But now she’s juggling two ~ a real one, and the one that has her vacationing in some strange man’s head in her dreams.

When Kori agrees to pinch-hit for JT’s usual photographer, he doesn’t realize that her sight reaches further than just through the lens of her camera. When he learns her secret, can this rock star dream her off her feet?

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Stevie Kisner

Author Bio:
Stevie has been writing words for other people’s consumption since she was four and half and, after devouring ‘Charlotte’s Web,’ she took a magic marker and wrote her glowing opinion of it all over the nice tan cover. Too bad it was her cousin’s hardcover copy. Stevie got to keep the book.
Since then, she’s been reading anything she can get her eyes on: books, newspapers, cereal boxes, shampoo bottles… and liner notes. A total rock music junkie, Stevie feels every book (and every life) has a joyous soundtrack. When she’s not reading, she’s writing (both into the wee hours of the morning) and has a love affair with coffee, tea, and anything caffeinated.
Stevie lives in the high desert of New Mexico with her husband, son, and a completely spoiled shedding machine that people say looks amazingly like a Golden Retriever. You can find her on Facebook at StevieKisner, where she spends an obscene amount of time avoiding doing anything productive whatsoever.


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Thursday, March 14, 2013

Virtual Book Blog Tour: The Game Ain't Always Fair - Camille Sanders

Time Reese has lived the good life for as long as her memory can recollect.  Time’s undeniable beauty and affluent family background are merely masks for her promiscuous, abrasive and “out for myself” mentality. She makes for a great match with cold-hearted  kingpin Trell; and together the two go on to operate one of the most merciless drug enterprises Memphis has ever seen.  But when a familiar face resurfaces, and digs up the demons of her painful past, Time finds herself at a crossroads that may force her to make the ultimate choice. Tearney Richards is struggling to raise her two kids, both from different men, on government assistance.  A chance encounter puts her in the crosshairs of Ethan Kish, a big time record label Exec who gives her the one thing she’s always dreamed of- a record deal. Her life begins to change dramatically and the girl who once had nothing now has everything. But, at what cost? Brena Sheldon went from waiting tables to living in the suburbs with a successful attorney. After his jaw dropping secret life is revealed, Brena gets an attitude makeover, moves out of state and embraces a new life. She soon becomes engaged to hoop star Darrell, and believes she has met her Prince Charming finally. Is he who he proclaims to be or is it all just smoke and mirrors?

Take a ride with these three friends as they face the harsh reality that, The Game Ain’t Always Fair.



I never was the one to cry over spilled milk. And why should I? I mean, once the milk was out of the glass and on the floor, what good was it to me then? Actually I probably shouldn’t say that because here I am, headed down I-55 to do what? Yep you guessed it, clean up spilled milk.

The usual 3 hour drive from Memphis had been cut in half. I guess adrenaline makes you drive faster. I took the exit that led to Byram, MS. It had been three weeks since my boyfriend Trell and I had sparked a deadly drug war against our rival competitors. This drug war was so ruthless, and so without mercy. But, it was effective. Like any war, sometimes the blood shed comes from that of one you love. I had lost my best friend in the midst of our fight to keep our reign as the king and queen of the Memphis drug game. But, that’s not what I was about to get revenge for. That had been handled. The execution I was about to deliver was personal for different reasons.

Once I saw the three mile long white fence come into view, I knew I had reached the ranch. I approached the front gates as they opened slowly, remembering all the times Trell and I had shown up here with our 18 wheelers moving weight in and out. A white 745 BMW was parked at the front entrance with its headlights on high beam. I let down the driver side window and watched as William Garrett, or Mississippi Willie as he was affectionately called him, got out of the Beamer and made his way over to my car.

“You sure you don’t want me to take care of it?” Willie leaned into my window. I saw his sharp eyes do a sweep of the vehicle. I could smell the scent of Black and Mild on his breath as he spoke.

I shook my head.  “Nah. I got this.”

He nodded. “What that nigga did was the ultimate disrespect. I know deadin’ him won’t resolve what you feel on the inside but at least he won’t get the chance to do it no more. I just don’t get why you wouldn’t tell Trell about this?”

I gave him a look that let him know to leave it alone. The less we talked about it, the better.

“Aight, now everything locked down, nothin comin’ in or leaving’ out. You got it from here?” he asked as he backed away from the car.

“Yeah. It’s not like I never done this before.” I reminded him. I gave him one last glance before putting the car in drive and taking off.

I breezed down the long gravel road until it ran out. The black SAAB that Willie’s aunt had rented for me, came to an abrupt halt as I reached my destination. I hated driving low budget cars, but times such as these called for me to be as low key as possible. I climbed out of the vehicle, decked out in all black–the ensemble of a true boss.  I looked up at the six thousand square foot plantation style home. I shook my head at the realization that after tonight, it would be nothing more than a pile of useless ashes.

I used Trell’s key to unlock the front door and walked across the marble floors that led to the staircase. I could smell the faint aura of Pine Sol, like someone had just done a thorough cleaning of the place. I placed my foot on the first step of the staircase and it made a creaking noise upon impact. I passed the open sitting area and tried not to look at the large oil painting of Trell, his mother, and Rayshawn that sat in plain view above the double doors that led to Rayshawn’s sleeping quarters. Could I really do this? Could I really murder my man’s brother in cold blood?, I asked myself. I opened the doors quietly and immediately knew the answer to my question once I saw Rayshawn sleeping peacefully in bed. I moved closer. His face was as beautiful as a summer in Costa Rica even with the scar on his eyelid. To look at him, a person wouldn’t even believe the horror he was capable of.  I reached for my .45 and cocked it back, triggering a slight noise.  Rayshawn shot up in his sleep, and opened his eyes. His fair complexion turned even paler.

“What the….- BLAOW!  I sent a bullet through his right kneecap. He wailed out in pain, reminiscent of a woman pushing a baby through the birth canal without an epidural.

I cocked my head to the side and raised the gun higher.

“Did I say you could talk?” I asked.

He held his wounded knee and grimaced. “Time how you get in here? Why you doin’ this shit?” he shouted.

“Why did you do what you did to me? Huh? I’m askin’ the questions today…get that understood!”

“I thought you was feelin’ me! Everybody ‘round the way said you was a freak and you liked it rough so I went for it! It wasn’t personal!”

That did it. Damn him for trying to justify what he did to me. I snapped, and for a moment I was no longer in the bedroom, but back in the barbershop on the cold floor. I could feel the cool air hitting the torn skin of my vagina as he violently forced himself on me. I thought about the two STDS I had contracted in the process. The lustful look of satisfaction on his face, bought it on home. I retrieved the silencer from my jacket pocket, screwed it on and released bullets until his bloody image replaced not only the agony of the rape but all the horrifying demons that haunted me daily. All the memories I couldn’t bear to remember. I shot until they were no more.

I stared into his now lifeless eyes and spoke in a pained whisper, “It was ALL personal to me.”

I dashed out of the house and back into the night. I went around the back of the house to ensure that the bomb was in place. Everything was trained and ready, just like Willie had promised. I walked back to the car, and got in.  I put the car in reverse and backed up further down the road and turned into a driveway that led to an open field, used for rodeos. From this spot, I could watch the show easily. Burn in hell.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds and rested against the headrest. I was ready for this to be over. I was tired. I opened my eyes and caught sight of a black Mercedes SUV coming to a stop in front of Rayshawn’s house.  How did that car get in here? What kinda watchmen does Willie have? A pack of royal dumbasses! They’re all good as dead. I put on my high tech binoculars. I was all set to let whoever was occupying the car go up in flames until the driver got out. It was Tearney. My heart began to beat loudly in my chest. I felt nauseous and light as a feather, like even the slightest wind could blow me over. The feeling escalated when I saw chubby Ishmael resting on Tearney’s left hip. My hands shook violently as I started the car and floored the pedal, veering in the direction of the house. I felt as though the car was not getting me there quick enough, so I got out and sprinted forward, yelling out to Tearney.

“Tearney get away from the house!” I screamed waving my arms over my head.

Tearney turned around and when Ishamel saw me, he immediately scooted out of her arms and began trotting in my direction. Tearney ran behind him.

“Come on Ishy! Come to Teetee Time baby! Come here!” I yelled running towards him with my arms outstretched. He smiled brightly at me, totally oblivious to what was going on. Tears streamed down my face, and in that moment everything that had happened earlier seemed so small. In fact, nothing mattered except his safety. Strangely my father’s last words came to me, “That unforgiving spirit of yours is going to be the death of you, and when you finally realize it, life will have passed you by completely.” I wept openly as I briskly swept Ishmael into my arms and took off running without a thought. I looked behind me, and watched Tearney sprinting behind us.

“Time! Time! What the hell are you doing here? Stop running!” she exclaimed.

I wanted to tell her I that stopping was not an option. I wanted to tell her our lives were flashing before us. But, I couldn’t. There was simply no time. I glanced back again, and for the first time I noticed Tearney’s protruding belly. She was pregnant. Oh God, what had I done? The emotions that I had buried my entire life, had finally burst to the surface. Compassion, humility, regard for human life, sympathy, and love for someone other than myself. But, these feelings had all come far too late.  Seconds later, the bomb exploded.

Camille Sanders is a native of Coldwater, MS. She attended Tougaloo College after high school for two years, and went on to attain her Bachelors Degree from the University of Memphis in 2012. Camille discovered her love for writing in the 4th grade, when she and a group of classmates compiled a series of short stories that they dreamed would one day be made into a movie. Camille became engrossed in Urban Literature when she was 13 after reading, ‘The Coldest Winter Ever’ by Sister Souljah. After carefully researching the publishing industry, she was inspired to start her own publishing company, Madam Millie Productions. The ‘Millie’ in the name of her company is in memory of her maternal grandmother Millie, a woman whom she never had the honor or pleasure of knowing. Camille currently resides in Northern Mississippi with her daughter, Addison and often times, her darling niece Madeline Grace.

Get to know Camille:

1. When did you first begin writing?

I started writing short stories in elementary school with a group of friends. I’ve always been an introverted person, so I used writing to express myself.

2. What inspired you to write your first book?

My father inspired me to take my writing to the next level. He loved to read my poems and short stories. I read my last poem I wrote for him at his bedside,  two days before he slipped into a coma. He told me to promise him that I would “do something” with my writing. So, completing and publishing my first book was keeping my promise to him in a way.

3. Tell us about your new book, The Game Ain’t Always Fair.

TGAAF is an urban tale with an original storyline about three young women. It’s a coming of age tale with a lot of twist and turns. What I love about this book is there is something for everyone. From romance to drama to tragedy to sisterhood, it’s all there.

4. Do you write from personal experience?

Yes and No. Some of the things in my book, are based on personal experiences and some are not. For example, one of the girls is a single parent, and I found myself venting some of my frustrations I had towards the whole “deadbeat dad” thing through the character. On the other hand, one of the characters is very cold and unfeeling, and can kill a man and not think twice about it. I’ve never done that. (laughs)

5. What new authors have caught your eye and/or gained your interest with a new release?

Although her book came out a few months back, and has been out a while, I loved Love Lee’s Already Taken. I have been antsy for the sequel since I read it.

6. What kind of advice would you give someone looking to break into the literary industry?

I would say do your research and seek counsel from productive sources. If you are interested in self-publishing I recommend reading manuals and how-to books that offer guidance. There are plenty of them out there, and remember Google is your friend. Life Changing Books also offers an online boot camp for those authors who are interested in self-publishing. No matter which route, you take never give up and stay the course. You will get discouraged at times, and hear a lot of “No’s” before you see any results. No matter what, is this is what you desire to pursue, keep pushing against all odds.

7. How can readers contact you and where can your book be purchased?

I can be contacted or reached at:

My books can be purchased at:,, Smashwords, or iBooks.


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